January 2010
36 posts
Hey Jude,
I still think about you. You are the only person I ever fell in love with. I always think of what I could have done to keep you. I think of the mistakes I made. I think of what I could have said, even though I said plenty.. It seems like something so perfect was lost. I have this bad feeling and this negative thought in the back of my head, that we will never have another oppurtunity. We will...
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Conclusion.
I was all over the emotions chart today. Thank God I don’t act upon impulse. I laughed and I cried, I remembered days in the far past, and the closer memories. I guess I really needed a lame day like today, to realize that I am still undecided on what I want. There are so many things I still need to overcome before I can determine such a great factor. I am content on where I am at. I need to...
A - AVAILABLE: not necessarily.
B - BIRTHDAY: september 26.
C - CRUSHING ON: uhmm joseph gordon levitt.
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: water.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: brittny, jessa and andrew.
F - FAVORITE SONG : too many.. but one is bittersweet symphony- the verve and another is just like heaven- the cure.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: bears
H - HOMETOWN: Chicago.
I - IN LOVE...
“A true friend stabs you in the front.”
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It’s a night like this that fucks me up. I’m fine, til I get to be by myself long enough. Then, I start thinking too much. Thinking about all the negative shit in my life. It’s silly, because I have so many positive things going on in my life right now, yet I focus on the little negative shit. How annoying. Perhaps, it will get better once I start having more distractions....
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Outcome.
You’d think that after any relationship, I would be sad about this one having ended last night. You’d think that after finally being appreciated by someone in a different way, I would at least shed a tear or something. I think this is one of those “learning” situations. I’m becoming acquainted with the fact that nothing lasts forever. Not because this person meant a...
Dear Me,
This is an enlightenment. I don’t need someone to make me happy. I don’t need someone constantly reassuring me that I am alright. That nothing is really wrong with me. There IS something wrong with me. And, I like it.
-Me
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Just the beginning. No end.